To POAS or not to POAS…that is the question!!!

For you infertility virgins (long may you remain so!) who have just stumbled upon my rantings by sheer luck (or bad luck!), POAS means to pee on a (home pregnancy) stick!

NOOOOOOOOOO I can hear all you seasoned TTC’vers scream at your PC, but hear me out first…

My reasoning is that, why shouldn’t I have some sort of normalcy in all this craziness? I know I will never experience what it is like to make the decision to have a baby and, 2 months later, be pregnant but, maybe, just maybe, if I finally get that 2nd line on the home pregnancy test perhaps, for a few seconds, I will forget all the past pain and heartbreak and know what normal feels like. Now that we are actually in our 2 week wait however, I must admit that I am a bit more cautious… after all, a home pregnancy test has never yielded good news for me before, I have NEVER in my entire 33 years on this planet, had a 2nd line appear, so what makes this time any different? Also, I’d quite like to remain PUPO (pregnant until proven otherwise) a little longer, in case Thursday’s blood test proves me PO rather than P!!!

Decisions decisions! Either way, I won’t do it till Tuesday, as that is 14dpo and so the result will be true….I cannot be arsed faffing around trying to make myself believe that a negative test is REALLY a positive, but just too early, like in my previous cycles.

Symptom update… AF type cramps today, which are completely freaking me out, as they do normally start on and off 2-3 days before AF arrives. Cue frantic knicker checking every 10 mins,..ahh the joy of the 2 week wait!!!

Keep us in your prayers (thanks to all who have left supportive comments) and feel free to comment with your view on whether I should or should not POAS on tues 😉

Bok xx